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Daily Extended Forecast for February 28, 2005
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As per usual, you've got a definite plan in mind, and a definite goal. You'll be especially focused on making this idea become a reality, and you'll be convinced that it can actually happen, mostly because you've been working so hard to be upfront and honest about it. So when someone comes to you and asks if you're ready -- well, if you're not, you'll stare them straight in the eyes and just say no, which is what you should do. Take your time. This can work.

Big things to come folks...i'm focused!

New Yorkers Give Blood!

The New York Blood Center, an organization which is the main supplier of blood donates to hospitals throughout New York and New Jersey has a request NY. It's an opportunity to extend life and health to other New Yorks who are in need of a blood transfusion. Their blood inventory is extremely low.

Eligible blood donors are between the ages of 17 to 75 and weigh a minimum of 110 pounds. Hence I can't give blood but you can, unless you are a lightweight like me. All donors receive a free mini medical exam to determine donor suitablity and it only takes about 20 minutes of your day.

Call 1-800-933-BLOOD or go to www.nybloodcenter.org to schedule a donation or blood drive.

Give blood, Give life!

I AM WOMAN I AM STRONG

Yesterday, via e-mail I experienced a written display of disrespect from a man who I've had little interaction with over the past year. And when I responded to his e-mail with "I love how a person who closes his message with the words Praise God can write such a detailed hateful message". He responded with some more disrespectful, rude, unnessary comments and issues concerning MY LIFE that DO NOT CONCERN HIM.

Well with that I just laughed. What else could I do? I would like to beat him like I was his momma, but he is not my child. I will of course try to my best to raise a better man that him.

He claims I insulted his manhood. He called me an extorionist, a panhandler, the Devil, miserable, weak, and that he is far more intelligent than I because he went to a better college. He also said im inconsiderate, I display no class, and I have a "lack of business savvy". Oh yeah he also said I act like my "Prepaid resume business is a fortune 500." Just to mention a few of the insults he threw my way.

Of course I have no reason to defend myself or internalize any of these remarks for I am woman, I am strong and in all honesty pray that the Lord help him with his anger and help him find his own life so that he is not obsessed with mine.

I have two thing to say so we all learn from this lesson.
1) If you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all.
2) Men respect women, we birth, we love you and we only expect love in return.

Star's Advice

Yahoo.com Daily Overview for February 24, 2005
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Daily Extended Forecast
Quickie:You may not see how things will improve right now. But they will. So relax.

I'm trying. I'm really trying too. I swear. Wait, how do you do that again? I mean, what exactly does that mean? Relax? HOW?

my Horoscope

Sometimes it is actually fitting to the current circumstances, take a look and i'll explain.

Yahoo.com Daily Extended Forecast for February 23, 2005
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You've just about had it with whoever it is that's been relentlessly picking and poking at you. You're ready to let go and let them have it. Well, before you do, warn them. Tell them what they're up against. That might be all it takes. And wouldn't that be better than leaving them verbally decimated? Well, wouldn't it? What do you mean, you have to think about it?

Do you know my anger, what I normally call the fire inside my chest prevented me from having a peaceful, normal day? Now my anger has definitely been a challenge because often times I too become a victim to it and allow it to consume me. So not only does someone else or something else feel my wrath but I still feel like crap after venting. Although today, what I learned I had to keep to myself and even if I was at free will to reveal and "verbally decimate" the person, I know it would be in my best interest I aviod the situation. Hence, "the fire in my chest" burned and burned and is slowly dying as other events take place.

And then, I come across this horoscope. Fitting. Of course I won't listen and give a warning, when I'm ready I will unleash the fury to it's highest potential. I'm hoping for his sake that more time has passed when it finally comes crashing his way because he won't crash as hard.

But "verbally decimating sounds ideal right now!

On another note I have not been accepted into the nyc teaching fellows program. quick cry and now i'm over it. The Lord must have another path for me.

and now i think i've been possessed by a poem.

i'm listening

open ears awaiting

wondering

wishing

attempting to understand

i'm listening

watching and wondering

what's next

for me in this life

there must be another path

the one I can't see

but willfully will follow

cause I know im destined

for something beyond this world

better

and until then

i'll walk

listen and follow

until im there.

100%

What Makes 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about achieving 103%?

another email.
What makes up 100% in life? Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions: If: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is represented! as: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Then:
H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% and
K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96% But,
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100% And,
B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T 2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103% AND,
look how far ass kissing will take you
A-S-S-K-I-S-S-I-N-G 1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 118%

So, one can then conclude with mathematical certainty that While Hard work and knowledge will get you close, and, Attitude will get you there, Bullshit and Ass kissing will put you over the top.

WAKE UP CALL!

"There's a growing perception that H.I.V. is a chronic and manageable disease, and so there's less fear of it," said Jay Laudato, executive director of the Callen-Lorde Community Health Center in Manhattan. "If anything, the case today should remind us how fearful we should be." -NYTIMES 2/12/05

"How far the strain has spread is unknown, but investigators are actively trying to track down the infected man's partners. One person briefed on the case said the man slept with hundreds of people in the fall of 2004. So far, investigators have contacted about a dozen people they believe had sexual contact with him." -NYTIMES ARTICLE 2/16/05

These statement SCARE me as should it scare each of you. Hundreds of partners...Please let this be a wake up call.

Practice SAFE sex, get EDUCATED and get TESTED!

if you are in the new york area and want to get tested for free check out this website for more info http://www.ascnyc.org/testing.htm

Did They Do It?

Juicy gossip always boils down to the big question, "Did they do it?" It starts around high school when you see two hot and hormonal cuties and rumors begin, then in college you just know what's going to happen when two folks walk out the bar giggling and holding hands.

Well believe it or not part of determining and dating ancestry stems from asking the same question. Not just did they do it, but who did and when. In a symposuim held in NYU recenting, discussion of whether Europeans carry neanderthal genes rose. Which of course lead Paleoanthropologist Dr. James C. M. Ahern to finally bring up the main question, "Did Neanderthals and modern humans do it?"

Could you imagine having sex with a caveman? Well some of you might already viewed some partners this way. lol. Interesting, sex with a whole other species...maybe the saying that love conquers all is true, lol. Bet you didn't know that my minor in college was sociology/anthropology.

well if you are interested in reading the article which does suggest it's possible but has very little evidence to prove it you can find it here: http://www.nytimes.com/2005/02/15/science/15nean.html?

This is for the Men

I got this in an e-mail. Maybe we should cut them some slack ladies....

Do you know how tough it is being a man...?

If you put a woman on a pedestal and try to protect her from the rat race, you're a male chauvinist.

If you stay home and do the housework, you're a pansy. If you work too hard there is never any time for her. If you don't work enough, you're a good-for-nothing bum.

If she has a boring repetitive job with low pay, this is exploitation.
If you have a boring repetitive job with low pay, you should get off your ass and find something better.

If you get a promotion ahead of her, that is favoritism. If she gets a job ahead of you, it's equal opportunity.

If you mention how nice she looks, it's sexual harassment. If you keep quiet, it's male indifference. If you cry, you're a wimp. If you don't, you're an insensitive bastard.

If you make a decision without consulting her, you're a chauvinist. If she makes a decision without consulting you, she's a liberated woman.

If you ask her to do something she doesn't enjoy, that's domination. If she asks you, it's a favor.

If you appreciate the female form and frilly underwear, you're pervert.
If you don't, you're gay.

If you like a woman to shave her legs and keep in shape, you're sexist.
If you don't, you're unromantic.

If you try to keep yourself in shape, you're vain. If you don't, you're a slob.

If you buy her flowers, you're after something. If you don't, you're not thoughtful.

If you're proud of your achievements, you're full of yourself. If you don't, you're not ambitious.

If she has a headache, she's tired. If you have a headache, you don't love her anymore.

If you want it Too often, you're oversexed. if you don't, there must be someone else.

NO WONDER MEN DIE BEFORE WOMEN! THEY WANT TO!!

Here's to all the Internet Friendships

You know that saying, "keep your friends close and your enemies even closer"? Well, i'm glad i can say that i have close friends and others who are even closer and no one to stick in the enemy category other than Satan and his gang of evil. Well if i do have enemies it's in secret because i don't know of any.

Anyhow, i have to smile today because i got a Happy Valentine's day message from someone who about 5 or 6 years ago i spoke to everyday. In fact this person I met online my freshman year in college and we had some great dialogue some nights and we even met up a few times. I can honestly say i cherish the friendship we have and although we have grown apart he always manages to keep in contact. And i'm really glad we crossed paths.

Here goes my thank you shout out to the internet, "i just wanna say thank you migente for introducing us and to blogspot for allowing such a wonderful community to live, write, read, relate, and bond!". "I also want to give a shout out to email for helping me keep in contact with the new friends and old friends".

And to any internet relationship gone bad or negative folks on here....just leave the nice folks alone and go have your own ugly party somewhere else.

Happy over-rated, over commericalize Valentine's Day!

HUGS AND KISSES go out to all those who won't be getting much of that this year! lol And for those of you who will, enjoy and cheerish it.

As for me...well let me just say I had a great lunch today...so great i didnt want to come back to work...and if i wanted to...i could have a great dinner...and maybe even desert...lol.

Crazy how things happen, if you could only see my face right now...i can't stop smiling. Im in a situation i totally didnt see coming or expect and on friday all of that changed. Yes, i know you're saying Friday? That was just three days ago...but yep...that's how it happened...happening....smile....uggh....i've disgusted myself being all happy.

Stay tune for a future blog...i might have to tell you about my little secret that keeps me smiling.

Happy Friday

Cheers!
The mornings past and so all we conquer now is the afternoon before freeing from the 9-5pm, 5 day work week. I hope folks have plans for the weekend.

As for the "Am I Wrong?" post, thanks for helping me feel sane. I appreciate all the feedback and have definitely taken heed to the advice. As an update...I'M NOT GOING TO THE EVENT.
I've decided it became such a big deal when it shouldnt have that it's better off I aviod whatever might come of the situation. The ideal situation would have been how some of you suggested, by either peacefully introducing myself and keeping it classy and civil or doing me and daring to bring a date along (which as much as I would love to, I fear it'll only bring more problems to the table...i can just hear how disrespectful he or his friends might take that...although on another hand he might not even care). So that's that!
I got an offer to go to the movies with a co-worker and some friends, I was also asked out on what you might call a date...but i've decided to just go home, hang out with my cranky son (he has a cold with never ending boogies), and "work on balancing my chi" and my belly fat, lol.

Enjoy your weekend folks!
Oh yeah and happy pre v-day! PRACTICE SAFE LOVE AT ALL TIMES!

Why I started this blog

Folks i realize i have deviated from my personal mission to spread awareness about the issues going on outside my personal home, going on in our world today. So just take a quick galance back to June 2004 Archives...where it all began...and read up on things that are important to me...some current world issue and some written pieces. Enjoy!

AM I WRONG?

Okay, it's not the norm for me to get really personal on here but i'd like to get some feedback from folks other than those close to home who know the whole entire sag.

So here's the long story short: Been separated for almost a year, but have to remain in contact because we share a beautiful son, pretty good at being friends, unless some "are you in involved convo" comes up.

Here's the situation: So an event this friday is being host by him. So I will support, attend briefly, and go about my business. However, i would rather not be in the same room with the new girl and be clueless about it. Maybe it shouldn't matter to me...but i'm wondering if she knows who I am and if she does then why don't I know who she is? See here comes some more background info: when we were in college i already played that roll when break up part 1 occurred where everyone but me knew the deal.

Hence in order to aviod that, keep my sanity and peace i'd rather know the truth and be briefly introduced if there is someone and she will be there. Besides, if we've long been over with why is it a problem to admit or reveal you are involved?

But apparently thats just impossible and makes me look crazy and jealous and still in love with him. I dont want to start beef, know details, become her best friend or interfer in his or their life. I'm thinking this is just the grown folks way to do things. Correct me if im wrong...but was I wrong for asking him if his new interest or girl will be there?

Maybe its better I just dont go and risk getting the "well you don't support me" lecture.

Mommy's Little Man! 

A MISSION

Okay. So i got some belly fat that's left over from the pregnancy. It's been over a year and it's still here and visible. It's that double roll, love handle that bunches up when you sit down, especially if you have tight jeans on but if your standing straight and tall you wouldn't be able to tell it's there kinda belly fat. So i'm on a mission to make it disappear as much as possible. Now I know my stomach will never be as perfect as it was before. Yes i said perfect because it was, the one flawless physical assest i had, with a cute little navel ring and all. After many failed attempts to at least have a fit stomach instead of a fatty flabby stomach i've realized i can't continue to use the excuse, "i just had a baby". So last night after watching Finding Nemo i got on the floor and started doing some crunches. Did about 40 and then just gave up. But i'm focused. I even decided i'd start using my treadmill which serves as a clothing rack than an excerise get fit tool. So let's see how long i keep this mission up. Tonight will be day 2. Wish me luck.

CAN I TELL YOU?

Can I tell you how this guy is trying to turn me into his "other chic", his "mistress", his "boo in the bronx"? But I will tell you that as much as I enjoy the attention (i know i should have cut the dude off right away) I refuse to fall for his game. I just can't get over it. From what it looks like he has a pretty good relationship going with his girl and claims he would die if she ever found out. SO CAN I ASK...WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HIM? I wish i was a psych major so i can understand why people have this need to have something good and still want more. He claims "there's something about you". Yeah, something about me that won't let me be the other chic no matter how sad the social life might be.

Can I tell you that if i pay all my bills i'll have a total of $6.00 in my checkings account? Can you believe that? That shit hurts. I mean all my bills will be paid...but still. So when you ask me, "hey what are you doing this weekend?" I'm going to laugh and say nothing, because I CANT AFFORD IT. OUCH.

Can I tell you i absolutely love the john legend album. So High, Refugee, and Ordinary people being my top three favorites. And that 50's Candy Shop song does something to me...and 50 suddenly looks sexy. I'm bugging right?

Can I tell you I got a raise? .5 percent of what i'm making now. Let's see how that works. It'll help, but it's still not enough. But what is ever enough? Hey as long as my bills are paid and I can some how feed myself i'm happy.